What it wants
This past week I think I let myself down, let me clarify that negative statement and my reasoning. As I’ve said many times before, I don’t think I’m better than anyone else but I know for a fact that I’m different…. It might seem narcissistic but I’ve always been proud of my physical abilities. I’ve loved working out, be it with weights in the gym, hiking, road running or mountain biking. I’ve written about my skydiving and several other sports that were major parts of my life, so going from an adrenaline junkie to an MS suffer was a huge culture shock in my life. But I’ve always tried to beat MS and never ever taken the med’s (drugs) the doctors wanted me to poison my body with.
About a month ago I stopped exercising as I had been, let me make this very clear for the “testa cuadra”…. I just stopped of my own volition… What happened because of this is what happens to everyone with MS, muscle atrophy takes over, my legs became weaker so physical movement became extremely difficult, my arms and shoulders which I’ve always been proud of, now performed like an old mans, yes I know I’m 64 but that just wasn’t acceptable to me.
On Sunday I think something clicked in my head and I gave myself a good slapping (verbally) then started exercising again, I appreciate Trevor and his efforts are great for the majority of others, but as I said, I’m different and have always been able to inspire and motivate myself. Over the last three days I honestly believe I’ve made a huge difference mentally and it’s definitely helped physically.
What I’ve done, even though I was exhausted, is to do things I struggled to complete, but I’m feeling so much better, what I’ve done is what my body needs, not….
What it wants