The big picture.
Okay I had two and a half really bad days from Monday afternoon but Thursday after such a terrible time was not a bad day at all, yes I was still weak but not “very weak” as I had been, I was able to get around with far less fuss and less pain than previously. So in reality I should consider that a good day, when I say being weak, it’s not just feeling worn out after a hard day’s work, no that wouldn’t be a problem, it’s being unable to stand or open an envelope. Yes Thursday was a much better day, when I look at this horrible predicament I find myself in, there is so much to feel negative about, apart from the two falls recently which caused excruciating pain, I’m in pain as soon as I wake up until I’m in that wonderful place called sleep although it’s only five hours it’s quite rejuvenating, the pain is bearable. Because I’ve been in pain for the past thirteen plus years I’ve just accepted and when possible I ignore it. The limitation it places on me is equally as painful in a different way, I mean you all know how physically active I was so to be as useful as a garden hose trying to put out a fire on the Empire State building is hard to take. Okay, okay enough negativity, I’m alive with hope and genuine knowledge that I will get better soon. I know that because I’ve been told, so looking at the big picture, I’ve been there, done that, I’ve the T shirt and the video, I’ve so much to be grateful for.