Percentage
What I’m going through, what I’ve experienced over the last two months is difficult to explain really, small changes, minimal improvements are happening each day but whereas in all my previous attempts, and they were attempts based on my own research, in the main they could be likened to being on an escalator. Not in the normally accepted way, no it was like being on a down escalator but trying to walk up, initially as a strong man I could keep a good place and stay in the middle. Sadly my efforts as dedicated and committed as I was, just wasn’t enough so slowly but surely as the disease started to take a firmer hold I was moving further to what I felt was a point of no return, a bit like taking a step up but going two steps back. I felt like I was fighting a losing battle and it was very hard to deal with emotionally especially for such a physical man like me. But that was then and not now, now it’s very different, I’ve written about changes that are happening, unfortunately at this time the changes can’t be looked on cumulatively. It’s not as if an improvement is permanent, they happen one morning but go in the afternoon. Yesterday there were two physical things I did that I haven’t been able to do in four years, sadly I couldn’t do them again today but when I look at my physical self now it’s an improvement on last month. I have to look at the big picture, how there’s small but positive improvements that will slowly but definitely become permanent. This is just nine weeks into a very long journey, when I look at my improvements yes they’re small but a small percentage improvement is massively better than anything going down that escalator.