Not all good.
Most days I write about the positive things that are happening, I believe in being positive and optimistic, as far as I’m concerned that’s a far better place to be, positive attracts positive… right! there’s no point, no future in whining, “oh woe is me, why am I always suffering”, if that’s what you send out then that’s what’ll keep coming back. So my attitude is that I’m so grateful for the improvements that are happening, there’s no doubt in my mind, not a single iota of concern or worry, “I am getting better, my condition IS improving”… So saying these things must mean that I’m in a great place physically and mentally because of all the positives right!! Well not exactly, it’s not all good all the time, the positives happen yes but it’s not a cumulative effect, I’m not as weak or as unstable as I was but…. I’m still weak just not as weak as I was, my weakness, instability and pain was bad, if I consider that at level 10 then the improvements overall have moved me to level 9, it’s better definitely but it’s still freaking horrible when considered to a 24 hour condition. I’m not healed, I can’t walk or sleep on my back, if I do I can’t sit up in the morning, I end up sliding off the bed and spending half an hour completely exhausting myself trying to get up off the floor, it’s so frustrating and painful so now I sleep sitting up. But…. and this is such a big but, when I look at how things are now in comparison to how they were and how they would have been if I hadn’t been so, so lucky to have been told about Ann Boroch and her protocol. I have MS but my condition is improving just because I do things differently than I did 10 weeks ago, in the grand scheme of things my life is better and the very small improvements, small and subtle as they seem, are massive to me. I will stick to this because it works unlike the drugs and contrary to all the naysayers, the medical professionals that say multiple sclerosis is incurable, no it’s not all good but it is a damn site better than it was and I for one am so happy about it.