My mind.
As I’ve admitted before, in life we all get overwhelmed with things that are happening to us or around us, sometimes it all just seems too much to cope with. Normal everyday issues like “the kids, or work or relationships” tend to become problems too difficult to deal with. I can remember very clearly how that was for me many moons ago, those issues are long gone in my life, now the problems are different, they tend to be focussed on my health. Unlike the normal issues everyone else has to deal with, mine just don’t go away, they are eased temporarily but not cleared. The everyday existence of life is different but not necessarily any worse or harder to not just cope with but deal with, obviously I’m not having to sort out the “the kids or work”, with me it’s “can I make it to the loo in time” or ” oh crap I’ve fallen heavily and I’m struggling to get up off the floor”. Whatever….. My problems are my problems, I don’t want or expect anyone to feel sorry for me or pity me or anything, it is what it is, it’s a freaking disease that I have and you don’t, it’s just a fact. I could be depressed or unhappy but I’m not, I just have to deal with it, and I do. How is that, firstly I don’t feel sorry for myself, I don’t dwell on the restrictions and limitations it puts on me and secondly and more importantly I absolutely believe 100% that this is a challenge and I really don’t like to be beaten so I’m not going to accept defeat, I’m going to do whatever….. whatever I can to find a way to overcome this hideous disease. My body is suffering but guess what….. I have something no one else in the world has, not one other person of the 7.5 billion on earth have, I have my Mind, so there!!!!!