Perspective.
Since Tuesday I’ve been feeling bad, mentally not physically, since I wrote about the possibility of going to a clinic for stem cell therapy but not getting a response about needing help. It might not seem like a bad thing to you but for me it was such a horrible shock. When I lived in Colorado I often talked to my American friends about the bond I had with the people I knew through skydiving, primarily the Sibson crew. In my view, my memories of a ten year period were just amazing. Maybe because I was unable to get back for the anniversaries that those special memories have been removed from everyone else’s mind regarding me, the weekends were so good, the “night naked jumps off the bridge” and lots of great times. For me, getting MS in 04 has meant a gradual reduction in my life physically to the point that I’m in my flat 24/7. I’m not depressed or lonely, I know the past twelve years since official diagnosis have limited me dramatically but in my heart I know things will change for the better. I don’t know when it will happen but I know it will and I cannot let any doubts, fears or negativity enter my head. I know none of you meant any harm by not saying anything but it was like a kick in the balls to me, I think my view on what i perceived as friendship is very different, I shouldn’t have voiced my opinion, but now now I have a completely different perspective, my bad.
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