It’s not easy.
I’ve talked about the challenges we face when we have the desire to follow the ABP with the aim of healing ourselves. Everyday there are temptations unlike any a healthy person is likely to face, very basic, mundane things like “should I go to the loo now or can I wait till after I’ve eaten” or “will eating that cereal make me sick” and other ridiculously simple tasks to others that are painful and frustrating when we have less control, obviously as we become more in tune with our body and the protocol it gradually becomes natural and less of an issue.
Over the last month I’ve really been pushing myself, I know that everyday the muscles in my legs and core are wasting, they are constantly getting weaker which is making life so much harder, getting up and furniture walking to the bathroom 20 times each day is exhausting, so having a weaker body and legs make it so much more demanding.
That being said I’m trying my best to exercise, squats, press ups and the plank are hard but I try to do all of them everyday, I sit there and mentally try to motivate myself, actually it’s not motivation per se, I yell at myself in my mind and tell myself to not be a wimp and get off my lazy backside and just do it…
The exercise, any exercise is tiring enough but getting up off the floor is sometimes even harder for me, there’s been days that I’ve exercised then spent the next twenty minutes totally exhausting myself trying to get up. I often feel good mentally at the end of the day and then first thing in the morning that’s true but I can tell you, exercise it’s not easy.