I just knew.
There are times when watching The Voice or B.G.T. or The X Factor that when they show a detailed look into one of the contestants and there’s video footage of them performing as a 6 yr old and later as a teen in front of their family because it was always what they wanted. You see them interviewed and then saying that it’s what they’ve always wanted to do, when that happens you as the viewer are expecting them to sing or perform well because it’s in their blood to be a performer. Then they walk on the stage and you can feel their personal confidence when they start to sing, it’s controlled perfectly even though inside it’s nerve wracking initially to them but it’s what they want and they want it enough that the fear, the anxiety, the nerves are controlled as they do what they know is right, what’s meant to be.. for them.
Well….. I’m not a singer, apart from in my head, I’m not a performer, but I do have something in common with all the good ones on those shows…. I believe in myself, I have absolute confidence in me…. before a friend of mine, Mary who was a patient of Dr Huggins 8 years ago and lives in Wisconsin in the U.S. decided to tell me about Ann Boroch and her research, work and untimely death, even before I knew that I believed in myself. It’s weird because I’m sure my family and close friends all believed that I believed in myself and somehow my healing would happen but no one including me knew how. For the last 5 1/2 months I’ve been following the method, the proven successful method known as the Ann Boroch Protocol…the ABP… that requires a 100% commitment. Obviously unless you’re a superhuman there will inevitably be times or possibly days that the commitment slips but providing you’re able to get back on track, be strong mentally against all odds then the protocol will work. I’ve had to be strong and with guidance from my good friend Janet Orchard, actually we’ve never met but she’s been my mentor and inspiration so in my book she’s my good friend….. with her help I am honestly feeling so good, the little, the small, the subtle changes that came and went in a heartbeat are starting to become longer everyday experiences. I find myself able to move easier, to actually be aware of the toes on my left foot, not all the time but sometimes I’m able to spread them out, to actually feel them moving, it’s so, so good, I know that probably seems weird to normal people but when that hasn’t happened for years it’s great.
So it’s truly happening, contrary to what all the naysayers, the medical professionals, the doctors and neurologists said would happen, slowly but surely I’m healing, so even though 14 years ago there was no tangible proof, I just knew.