Visible change..
I can only function in life in a positive way, I think anyone that actually knows me and the thousands that read my blog will have to agree that I have a positive demeanour, since contracting this hideous disease and being told by many so called medical experts that it was incurable, I adopted the defiant, stubborn little kid attitude of, “I don’t give a crap what you say”….
The first four years I blindly stood my ground and applied common sense choices to what food and drink I consumed, I was able to continue to work full time and keep the majority of symptoms at bay. In 2007 I started working for Dr Hal Huggins, who also had MS and had a full life until his passing at 79 yrs old. I learnt so much about health in general, dentistry and body chemistry rebalancing which enabled me to not only improve my own life but also to help thousands of others and that’s not an exaggeration.
Thirteen months ago after reading what I truly believe to be the most important book in my life, “Healing Multiple Sclerosis” by Ann Boroch, I started on her protocol.. The ABP gave me genuine inspiration and hope that I was going to once again live my life instead of simply existing.
The first two months were damn hard, the protocol is not for the weak willed or those not really wanting to get better. The next four or five months were filled with far more good days than bad, from then on bad days were very few and far between, it became quite a shock to actually feel bad, that was until I moved house.
One year after starting the ABP I moved into a 350 yr old converted barn, I think the first 5 weeks I was very sad inside…. I tried to not let it show in my attitude to others but my heart was crying.
About 10 days ago things stated to change, the council disability people agreed to help with additional hand rails, DFS have changed my sofas which make a massive difference in being able to move around. I’ve also made a couple of adjustments to my supplements, I’ll talk about them in a couple of weeks when I know for sure it has been them that’s helped.
I’ve mentioned that I’ve been spending about 20 hours each day in my bed, well today.. Sunday.. I was able to get up and go back into the living room for an hour, get something from the kitchen and have a cup of tea, it might not seem like a big thing, but for me it was a massive visible change…
That in itself has reaffirmed I’m moving forward…
Visible change..
I can only function in life in a positive way, I think anyone that actually knows me and the thousands that read my blog will have to agree that I have a positive demeanour, since contracting this hideous disease and being told by many so called medical experts that it was incurable, I adopted the defiant, stubborn little kid attitude of, “I don’t give a crap what you say”….
The first four years I blindly stood my ground and applied common sense choices to what food and drink I consumed, I was able to continue to work full time and keep the majority of symptoms at bay. In 2007 I started working for Dr Hal Huggins, who also had MS and had a full life until his passing at 79 yrs old. I learnt so much about health in general, dentistry and body chemistry rebalancing which enabled me to not only improve my own life but also to help thousands of others and that’s not an exaggeration.
Thirteen months ago after reading what I truly believe to be the most important book in my life, “Healing Multiple Sclerosis” by Ann Boroch, I started on her protocol.. The ABP gave me genuine inspiration and hope that I was going to once again live my life instead of simply existing.
The first two months were damn hard, the protocol is not for the weak willed or those not really wanting to get better. The next four or five months were filled with far more good days than bad, from then on bad days were very few and far between, it became quite a shock to actually feel bad, that was until I moved house.
One year after starting the ABP I moved into a 350 yr old converted from, I think the first 5 weeks I was very sad inside…. I tried to not let it show in my attitude to others but my heart was crying.
About 10 days ago things stated to change, the council disability people agreed to help, with additional hand rails, DFS have changed my sofas which make a massive difference in being able to move around. I’ve also made a couple of adjustments to my supplements, I’ll talk about them in a couple of weeks when I know for sure it has been them that’s helped.
I’ve mentioned that I’ve been spending about 20 hours each day in my bed, well today.. Sunday.. I was able to get up and go back into the living room for an hour, get something from the kitchen and have a cup of tea, it might not seem like a big thing, but for me it was a massive visible change…
That in itself has reaffirmed I’m moving forward…
Just a bad…
About 2 years ago I was going through the toughest time since I was diagnosed in February 2004, I got progressively worse, I’d returned to England because I just couldn’t look after myself and needed a carer for an hour and a half each day to prepare foods and the waters I was drinking, the stubborn side of me maintained I would beat this on my own although in reality a solution wasn’t in sight.
Falls happened regularly, sometimes twice each week, I had one that resulted in a deep cut in my head and lots of blood staining the carpet, another left a 3 inch diameter dent in the wall where my thick skull had landed… after each I refused to go to hospital because I knew I’d only get worse in there and wouldn’t be able to take the waters and natural supplements I needed.
I remember one particular occasion when I’d had horrendous diarrhoea and made a disgusting mess of myself and the bathroom, again stubborn me took two hours to clean myself, it was ridiculously exhausting but I was so embarrassed and wouldn’t call for help. After struggling for two hours I attempted to get from the bathroom to my bed, the 15 foot distance took about 45 minutes, then another 30 to get up onto the bed.
In August last year I read “Healing Multiple Sclerosis” by Ann Boroch then in September I started the protocol, the first two months were hard but I persevered and things got better.
Thirteen months later with the support and guidance I received from others I truly believe, I know without a shadow of doubt that I will be healed within the next three years, it’s not a difficult thing to cope with knowing there is a light at the end of the tunnel. The toughest times and experiences in my MS life are just a bad memory.
Different levels…..
I suppose from the outside looking in, what I’m experiencing and going through probably doesn’t appear to be any different now than it did a month or a year ago.. however from my perspective, from the inside looking out its a world apart. Yes I’m in pain 24/7, yes I struggle to move around, yes my fatigue is still horrible, but those things are on a totally different level now. The pain is more of a discomfort, getting to the bathroom is so much easier, of course the new sofas help, but I’m able to stay in the living room for an hour longer and when I do go to my bed it’s so much easier.
The squats I’m doing everyday are becoming normal for me, it’s not a true squat as in bending at the knee then holding that position, that will come but at this point I’m able to stand up from sitting on the bed or sofa and repeat that ten times, actually today I did a set of twenty and a set of ten with only a minute rest in between.
it’s only been 13 months since I started, and I’ve adjusted what I’m doing as and when necessary, I don’t do anything I shouldn’t and I believe I’m 100% compliant with the protocol, but I have added to it, as in full spectrum CBD oil and mega dose D3 which I believe are helping.
September 1st 2017 I was hopeful and optimistic because of what I’d read and my chats with Janet, jump forward 13 months, 1 week and 3 days, and those hopes and optimistic views are becoming reality. Still just shy of three years to go but I’m so excited and happy
Hard to describe, really…
I think most people reading my blog will have a good understanding of the type of person I am, I’ve said before that I don’t consider myself better than anyone else but I know I can be more focused and determined which in my opinion gives me a better than average chance of fulfilling my goal.
I watch two or three motivational YouTube videos everyday and I’m constantly myself that I will succeed, this on occasions is very difficult when I’m going through a tough patch such as the period since moving at the end of August.
However, watching the videos and telling myself I’m getting better and better everyday in every way is of no use whatsoever if my inner self, my subconscious mind doesn’t believe it….so overriding the obvious, the physical pain and mental anguish is hard, but it Must be done in order for me to genuinely Feel it.
This week as I get out of bed I’ve forced myself to stand up without leaning or resting against anything, yesterday and today I did two sets of ten squats unaided… My legs feel totally fatigued afterwards but stronger as the day goes on, I’m so, so proud of myself, I really am, it’s hard to describe the feeling.
There is only one Stefan Cairns, born in1955 in Liverpool, son of Harry and Gina, I only have one life and I only live one day at a time so I fully intend to be the best Me possible everyday …there are people alive and no longer with us that motivate me into being strong and to never give up. I’ve made a promise to myself and I don’t break my promises.
How do you do it….
Having a disease that the world of medicine consider to be incurable is….. was a daunting thing to deal with, because I’m who I am and my attitude towards pharmaceutical drugs and the pariahs that make them, when I was diagnosed in February of 2004 I stuck my chin out and told the neurologist that I’d deal with it. I remember very clearly how it was in the consulting room at “The Rose” hospital in Denver, Colorado, the indignant, confused look on the neurologists face…. he stated categorically that I’d be in a wheelchair permanently within six months if I didn’t take the drugs he was prescribing… as I’ve said before, that never happened and after almost 15 years I think I’ve done well. I continued full time work until mid 2011, admittedly I struggled after that to live a normal life, I had to use a cane to walk, and that was limited, but I just knew, I just had an unfailing belief that I’d find a way… I started to have concerns and doubts when the stress of losing my job, no unemployment benefits and no medical assistance became a frightening reality…
With the help of Mum and my sister Suzie I came back to England, according to the neurologist I was beyond pharmaceutical help so it was down to me, to keep looking, to keep believing.. there’s no doubt it was really hard to stay positive although any doubt I had completely disappeared in August 2017. I’d been told about Ann Boroch who’d healed herself, I read her book, “Healing Multiple Sclerosis”, then I chatted with Janet Orchard and arranged to start the Ann Boroch Protocol (ABP) in September.
Understanding that this was not going to happen overnight, that it’s a four year program, is difficult to deal with physically, emotionally and mentally, but there’s very positive steps that inspire and motivate. The bad bits happen, but they’re just that, bits…. and become less frequent as I move further into this.
Nothing great happens instantly and without effort, but it’s definitely happening… how do I or you persevere?…. little by little…
Didn’t want it….
Like so many others with this hideous disease, as in multiple sclerosis, I’ve embarked on a journey that in reality will probably be my life’s challenge. My belief….My absolute belief is that I will achieve my goal, which is totally healing from this within four years, it might be less or more but it will happen. However, when that happens I won’t revert back to my previous eating habits because all that would do is reverse all the previous efforts, and trust me when I say, the ABP is not easy…
Getting a so called incurable disease, and MS is perceived to be one of them, didn’t happen overnight, yes I did wake up one cold February morning in 2004 and experience horrendous symptoms, but that was my body eventually succumbing to the culmination of many years of bad things that had gone into my home, as in the body my conscious and subconscious mind lives, otherwise known as me… Stefan.
I honestly believe that a person, anyone…. Can achieve anything they want, if…. if they truly want it, there can be no “if’s or it was too hard, or I didn’t like to eat that way”.. if you really want to achieve something, you’ll do whatever it takes…
Start this protocol and commit, yes it’s hard initially and there’s good and the occasional bad along the way but you only have to look at those that have gone before and healed to see that all the pain and sacrifice will be worth it, if I, you don’t succeed there’s no excuse, it’s just that you didn’t want it… enough…
Because I will never….
At the beginning of the month, my first year anniversary of the ABP, the day I consider to be my New Years day, actually my New Life Day, I moved to a new house, that description is wrong, yes it was a new place to live but “New house” !!! Not really because it’s a 350 yr old converted barn, I’ve said that before, I know…. now after three weeks here, there have been some changes to me and I’m really, really confused about because I have up to the beginning of September been making what I’m happy to say have been really positive improvements. But since moving in I physically feel I’ve taken a step backwards. My initial thoughts were that stress was the culprit, I also ate a couple of not allowed foods, not purposely, I simply made an error in judgment, that’s been corrected, wrist firmly slapped…. and back on plan. Getting to the bathroom, a 20 times per day occurrence was….. is very difficult and seriously tiring, New furniture that looks great but soft non supportive arms makes it so awkward for me. Fortunately DFS are very kindly allowing me to change the sofas to two more appropriate ones, as they are being made to order I won’t get them for another two weeks, but I’m so grateful it’s happening.
So those things were the reason I thought that I’ve been so fatigued about 4 hours after I’ve been up and about, I’ve also been in seriously deep thought as to other possible reasons, I’ve been in my bed resting for 20 hours each day, which I’m sure you can imagine is a tad boring to say the least.
I’ve come to the conclusion that the stress of moving, the slight indulgence, the difficulty in getting around, definitely played a part in this but personally I don’t think that that is the definitive reason…. yes they affected me but I feel it’s more likely another phase of Die Off…. and as such it will pass.
It’s been challenging, exhausting, frustrating and damn well painful, but as we all know, this is a very specific journey we travel, it’s likely to be a four year adventure and probably not just that but more likely for life, so after a year of slow but steady improvements, then three weeks plus of horrible times, it has been a worrying period for me, but know this my friends…..I will achieve the beloved goal of healing…. why???? Because I’m a stubborn determined scouse git and I will never, ever give up…
Over confident.
As my first year was completed at the beginning of the month I personally felt really good about how things were going, there’s no doubt about the many small improvements that have slowly but definitely become a very positive compilation and confidence booster.
When looked at by others it probably doesn’t appear that different, but from my point of view they are small but significant changes, the reduction in pain, the ability to feel and move my toes on my left foot and so many other things have made me feel so optimistic. I like to think of the focus and determination I’ve shown over the year is exactly what’s necessary to be successful in this clearly laid out but very strict protocol.
In order to succeed in this, in my opinion is to develop habits…. good habits are very hard to develop but so easy and beneficial to live with, whereas bad habits are easy to develop and very hard and detrimental to live with…
I moved house 2 weeks ago with the massive help of my fantastic sister Suzie, into a 350 yr old converted barn that was once, not that long ago, being used as a church…
Obviously the move, the changes, the differences have been stressful for all concerned, however it shouldn’t have been used as a reason to be stupidly over confident, which I realise I have been and eaten foods I shouldn’t have… Stupid boy!!!!
Carbzone… gluten free bread, I’ve not had breads or pitta’s for about 10 months, also a gluten free breakfast cereal sweetened with stevia… that should have been okay but it also had little pieces of chocolate in, again sweetened with Stevia.
I’ve been struggling big time getting to the bathroom which is narrow but in reality shouldn’t have created such a big problem, so much so that although I’m up by 8am I’m back in my bed by 12.30.. so about 19 plus hours in my bed, not sleeping, it’s just so much easier knowing I’m in the loo 20 times each day.
Changes:… incorporating some new electrolyte tabs that hopefully can help me reduce my water intake, I’ve just started them so we’ll see if dropping to 3.5 litres from 5 litres doesn’t have a detrimental effect. Also, the bread and that delicious cereal are no longer going to pass my lips.
It’s frightening to think that the sugar content, as small as it was, bearing in mind that all carbs are converted into blood sugars could have such a terrible effect, so a swift wrist slap…. ouch…I should have known better, and let’s see if I can continue my first year progress and not be stupidly over confident
Everyone wants……
The world doesn’t owe you anything, it isn’t your right to be healthy, rich, happy in a loving relationship…… nothing is your right… it doesn’t matter if your relative or friend or someone you know is really happy and successful…. you have no idea what they’ve done to get there…. it’s weird how the people that work hard, that keep trying just seem to get luckier and luckier everyday..
Work…. life… health…. the same applies… fall down….get up….fall down….get up… fall down.. get up !!!! For more than thirteen years I thought I knew I would beat multiple sclerosis, I just didn’t know how, I tried to remain optimistic, it was getting harder and harder everyday as I was getting weaker and sicker everyday. That was how it was until I heard about Ann Boroch and read her book, fortunately for me I was contacted by Janet Orchard and was able to start the correct way on the ABP.. now I’m not telling you there is only one way of beating this disease, but I am telling you that the Ann Boroch Protocol, the ABP is a tried and tested and proven way that is currently and has previously been followed by thousands….
So no complaints, no “Woe is me”, there no, “but it’s too hard”…. nothing great is easy, fantastic gymnasts and sportsmen didn’t just become great.. successful businesses didn’t become successful overnight.. in every case, the people had to try, try and try again….
Watch motivational YouTube videos, read books, do whatever is necessary…. Whatever…. and believe… don’t have the slightest doubt, regardless of whatever setback befall you..
Everyone wants to be healthy, successful or whatever, not everyone wants it enough, if you do, you’ll get there..