So much closer…
At this time last year I had just started my fourth month on this protocol, the first two months were quite frankly, horrendous… I think this will be hard for most to truly understand but the horrible days were such an integral and important part of this. As I’ve become more knowledgeable about this method and why every stage, every difficult step is critical and must be followed and adhered to, there’s no point in trying to fool yourself that it’s okay to just ignore a rule…. they are rules not recommendations.
As the first year ended, apart from the difficulties associated with moving house, which I did, I realised how much I’d come on, I know it’s not obvious to most people because this disease is working as hard as it can twenty four hours each day, every second you’re alive there are literally billions of things going wrong amongst the trillions of cells, so being able to slow that army down and make the smallest of improvements is absolutely amazing.
Anyway, now that I’ve just completed my fifteenth month and the small subtle improvements have become constant, so much so that they are being perceived as normal to me, I’m actually dreading this time of year. I so desperately want to enjoy the time with my loved ones, to indulge in the foods, a glass of wine and the Christmas festivities, but I know I can’t…. I’m feeling as if I’ll ruin it for others because I can’t even have gravy on my Christmas dinner, the yeast will knock me back so far.
This Christmas and the coming ones will be very difficult for me because I know I’ll have so much to lose if I make a selfish mistake now that every day I’m so much closer to my goal.
My destiny….
It’s so easy to sit and think that one’s own personal life is in a really bad state, for those like me having multiple sclerosis or any of the other serious illnesses, the healthcare practitioners, doctors, nurses and most carers will try to help and ease your burden, and that’s nice in most ways. However there is only one person that can and will change the situation in a lifelong future way…… you or me in my own personal situation.
Life is just that, life…..nothing is perfect, there’s always going to be tough days, when it’s hard, when it’s difficult, that’s when we have to be disciplined and not succumb to the overriding pain, discomfort and desire to give in. Whenever there’s a thought about giving in, it has to be pushed aside and draw on that inner strength, that belief that regardless of good, bad or indifferent times you/me will always try, not just try but try you’re best….
I have a dream and I will do whatever…. whatever it takes to fullfil it, the dream is to be healthy and to really live again..
Being sick and dependent upon others is how it is now but I will live my dream, and that my friend, is my destiny.
Up, down but standing still.
Having multiple sclerosis is a difficult thing to deal with, according to the millions of doctors, the thousands of neurologists around the world and the trillion dollar industry collectively known as big pharma, this disease is incurable, I have say that it’s their view, not mine.
So regardless of being little old me (emphasis on old), I believe 100% that I will beat this hideous disease. Admittedly it’s going to be a major challenge that’s going to have lots of downs but in reality far more good days culminating in a beautiful day that I and everyone including the sceptics, naysayers, defeatist’s and pariahs aka big pharma will acknowledge I’m healed..
You may have noticed I don’t say the word cured, and that’s simply because myself and others following the ABP don’t accept how multiple sclerosis is described and categorised…. the disease is in fact a combination of symptoms created by foods and substances that have entoered the body. This has resulted in multiple organs, hundreds of thousands of enzymes and trillions of cells having an inability to function as they should. So we have nothing to cure, but we do have our body to heal.
My point….. the world of medicine say I’m not going to win, I say, You can bet your sweet bippy I am, regardless of what you say, I will not be beaten… Fact….
It’s hard and it would be so easy to give up, but no matter what, no matter that it feels like I’m on a downward escalator trying to walk up, yes it sometimes feels that I’m walking up but going down, for a period, a limited one I’m standing still. This is a 48 month plan that I’m only 15 months into..
The Good, the Sad and the….
Well the best explanation of the title is that the horrible night and day that was Monday night and most of Tuesday is over, I’ve often categorically stated that this protocol has bad days but they are 99.9% of the time followed by good days, so yesterday I took my own advice and stayed in bed apart from an hour in the afternoon. So today, Wednesday I’m so pleased because I feel good, actually I feel great and am looking forward to my day, yayyy.
The Sad. My sister Suzie told my yesterday that her niece is having problems with her pregnancy and has had to go into hospital, I’m praying that she’s going to be okay, she’s a lovely girl and hopefully will come through this happy and healthy.
The final part is that it was lovely to Face time Suzie yesterday and although her main reason for calling didn’t wasn’t nice, she also said she was coming back early from Florida, in fact she’s getting the flight tonight and will be here tomorrow. So the complete title will read …
The Good, the Sad and the Lovely..
Poke the bear..
It’s 2 a.m. Tuesday morning and I’m writing this post, why, you ask?…. because I’m wide awake and feeling really bad, nauseous and like I’m about to have a very loose bm…
Of late I’ve definitely been feeling good, very good in fact, a little over confident maybe… not so much that I’ve strayed or diversified with foods as such but my mind has wondered and contemplated banned foods like pizza and ice cream… I haven’t had any but I definitely thought about it.
Those thoughts aren’t the reason for my current situation but thinking about them is bad and I haven’t felt as I do now for a long time…and just reminds me of the differences between the progress I’ve been making and how I don’t want to be. My carer comes for 30 mins around 5.30 each day, I had a protein shake made with almond milk, shortly after my carer had left I started to have a terrible gut ache which I can only think was caused by the almond milk, it didn’t taste strange but I’m sure that was it as I also had a cup of hot cocoa made with it.
I really struggled all night, it’s now Wednesday morning, there’s been a multitude of problems but hopefully they’re all sorted now thanks to activated charcoal, Himalayan Crystal salt and a 15 minute visit from my carer..
Again I try to look for the positives in this disease ridden life…. I’m still alive, no major pains and I’ve come through what could easily have been a serious problem but isn’t.
A phrase used a lot in the States, do what needs to be done but don’t..don’t poke the bear…
What was, is….
I’ll try to put this into perspective, having a disease is horrible, I’m sure others in various ways are just as demoralizing, frustrating, painful and limiting as multiple sclerosis, but as its the one I have, I can talk from experience. I had the pre diagnosis symptoms for about three years prior to the neurologist in Denver giving me the official verdict, I think they receive special training on how to share this information in a fait- acompli way.
Anyway as I’ve said many times before, I wouldn’t at the time and never have taken the medication, the drugs that basically numb the appropriate receptors in the brain on a temporary basis until the forever bigger doses cease to have an effect and the original diagnosis of incurable becomes a reality.
Getting back to my point, three years then the official diagnosis fifteen years ago means I’ve been experiencing this for eighteen plus years…. wow, there are kids younger than that driving..frightening…
The Ann Boroch Protocol… ABP, became my way of life in September 2017 and the first two or three months were damn hard, gradually the frequency of bad days became rare, in fact bad days just don’t happen anymore, yes of course there are difficult periods but they are limited to an hour or two.
I haven’t had one of those for a couple of months now which makes me very happy, come to think of it, I can’t specifically recall when the last one was. After about seven or eight months I started having actual great days which now seem to be the norm, in other words what was, is now my every day.
It’s not, but it is…
Making the decision to not give in and not to accept the depressing prognosis issued by the supposed experts in health that the disease you have is incurable, it’s strange how the medical world seem to promote themselves as such an incredible body and how they are working tirelessly to find ways of treating disease. If you look closely and search for the number of diseases they tell the world that are incurable you’ll find that there are 60 classes of disease that cumulatively equate to more than double that. Fifty years ago it was less than 30… hmmm, what they want you to believe is that they are such a wonderful group of people working on behalf of mankind…. but really they’re just a bunch of “Cant be bothered to truly help doctors”, working with the “money grabbing heartless pariahs, the pharmaceutical companies.
What a bunch of BS they spin…foods are made with synthetic crap that even insects avoid and certainly should never enter a human body. The chemicals, the artificial sweeteners, the additives, taste enhancers like MSG, monosodium glutamate and GMO’s… genetically modified organisms are all designed to appeal to the tastebuds and make you eat more of the unhealthy food.
People put lots of weight on and get organs incapable of doing the job they were designed to do and guess what…. they get sick and take drugs… drugs that treat symptoms and no more.
Alternatively you can consider a natural and proven way of restoring health, contrary to what the millions of brainwashed naysayers, doctors, drug lovers say, the Ann Boroch Protocol works for a multitude of diseases, not just multiple sclerosis. It’s a lifestyle change not just a simple diet.
So as the title of this post says… It’s Not Easy…but It is Worth It…
Ostrich…
When I was told that I had multiple sclerosis in February 2004 by a well respected, well qualified neurologist at The Rose hospital in Denver, Colorado, I was shocked obviously, especially when he categorically stated that he knew, not just thought but knew that this hideous disease was incurable…. He attempted in that ” know it all and I’m so superior to you” attitude to pacify me, to break it to me gently that I would gradually become 100% dependent upon others, but I could slow the inevitable by taking the prescribed medication.
I’ve said before that I refused point blank there and then and never have taken any pharmaceutical drug, it’ll be 15 years in February next year since he told me that I’d be in a wheelchair permanently within six months if I didn’t take the medicine, hmmm, let me think about that, was he right ?… No, because I’m in a massively better condition than he stated I’d be in.
In reality those so called medical experts know what they were told to know…. Yes they went through years and years of training to achieve the qualification of Doctor or Neurologist, but in reality it was misguided, misinformation. During those years there wasn’t a six month period dedicated to nutrition, actually it wasn’t even five or four or even one, it wasn’t even a week, it was more like a couple of days, and the subject was so belittled it wasn’t taken seriously.
Prior to coming back to England in November 2012, I’d been the client service director for Dr Hal Huggins who at the time was the world leading authority in biological dentistry and body chemistry rebalancing. I was fortunate enough to have met numerous doctors and specialists in the arena of Natural health and had discovered various ways of ridding the body of many so called incurable diseases. I personally met several people that were completely healed and at least four that had had cancer. So when reading “Healing multiple sclerosis” by Ann Boroch and then chatting with Janet Orchard I wasn’t sceptical or doubted her story, far from it… I was excited.
The world of western medicine, the allopathic medical professionals in my mind are either lying to themselves because they just want to keep being a “doctor” or they’re adopting the habits of a big flightless bird and being like an ostrich.
Is my own…
I think when I started the ABP 15 months ago my hope was that if I did this properly than after 4 years, not exactly that length of time to the day of course but roughly that, I’d be healed or at least in a significantly better condition than I was at that time. During the first two months my confidence in what I was doing was severely tested, I’ve written about some of the horrendous times I had, but as these things had been outlined to me by Janet I kept telling myself that those bad days were numbered, they gradually became fewer and further between. After about eight or nine months I was not having bad days as such, it was more of tough short periods and frequent rests was all I seemed to need to recuperate, so all in all the last two or three months of year one were very positive.
At the start of year two…. three months ago, I moved house, the stress and changes had a negative, almost overwhelming effect on this diseased mind and body of mine, but, anyone that’s read any of my 300 ish previous posts will know I’m an optimistic type of person and refuse to let negativity of any sort enter my mind.
So even though month 13 wasn’t great, it wasn’t bad either, just not as good as month 12, things became less difficult in month 14, and a few tweaks and adjustments have made month 15 into a really good one.
These past few days, no…this past week has been really good, my movement has been easier in lots of ways and has been noted by my carers which is nice for them to comment on. I think for anyone on this protocol there are always going to be friends and family that are concerned for our wellbeing, then there’s the doctors and healthcare providers that have concerns because in their opinion MS is incurable and what we are attempting is futile. However, after reading her detailed account of how she overcame this disease and hearing from others that have done the same, I have absolute confidence, I have faith, and guess what…. when it comes to opinions on the efficacy of the ABP, the only one that matters, is my own…
Too easy….
It’s so good to be able to do simple little things now that are likely to seem ridiculously inconsequential to most able bodied people but trust me when I say it’s huge to me. I think in the last few weeks there’s been several significant improvements that are making me a happy bunny.
I mentioned that I’d put together a book detailing my first year on this protocol, which I have to point out to the many naysayers, the MS sufferers that really don’t want to get better, possibly because they just like the added attention or financial benefits they get by being sick.
This is NOT a fad diet, this is NOT a quick fix program, this does NOT cost you anything other than your commitment… there will be some people from certain groups that have been completely brainwashed into believing what so called specialists have told them that MS is incurable…… because it’s not…
Anyway…. looking back to my posts 15 months ago and reading about the difficulties I was going through everyday makes me realise how far I’ve come, still a long was to go, but I know what I’m doing is working.
I’m so grateful to Ann Boroch R.I.P. and Janet Orchard specifically for getting me started correctly, feeling good everyday is so nice but I have to be careful not to slip up as forgetting and being a slave to tastebuds is too easy