Never, Never, Never…
I often write about the positive effects I’m having by strictly following the Ann Boroch Protocol, and its true. I dont write exaggerated effects as a way of misleading existing or new starters on this program, I tell it like it is…
My aim is to always inspire or motivate others while reminding myself of the changes I am personally experiencing.
However…. six weeks ago or is it seven…. hmm, whatever… I had a nasty fall that quite frankly buggered my knees…I’ve been limited to my bed ever since, apart from bathroom visits of course.
My plan was to allow the damage done to my ligaments, tendons and cartilage’s to heal, not an easy thing to do knowing that blood doesn’t flow through any, so daily TEN’s machine use and rest has been the only treatment.
Being confined because of the “lock down” is bad enough but being in bed is a tad worse…
I’m not better than anyone else, but I know I’m different, I am a very positive and optimistic person and I constantly tell myself I’m winning regardless of how depressing my condition is.
Sadly, a couple of days ago it all seemed too much, I actually felt down, I wasn’t depressed exactly but the negativity of my weakened legs, the pain in my knees and the excruciating agony of the sciatica which feels like a knife in my left butt cheek then streaming down my leg and needles being pushed into my toes just seemed too much for me.
I felt like I was being knocked down hill and all my previous work has been wiped away, I actually felt like giving up…
On Saturday I thought about several things that could possibly be restricting my progress, certain supplements I’d not been taking came to mind, that was rectified when my afternoon carers came and I’m noticing the difference as I’m writing this at “O dark thirty”…. (after midnight).
Anyway just so everyone knows, even though I always appear to be super positive, that occasionally….no, not occasionally, more like once in a blue moon I experience negative thoughts. I admit I had that on Friday and for a day or so I went through my Darkest Hour…. yes just watched my hero Winston Churchill, so I had a very tough time emotionally but it’s gone now and I’m back to being me…..so as he said…
Never, never, never give up..