What this has done…
I often wonder about myself, am I the person I sometimes portray myself as, y’know the “I’ll never be beaten” sort of guy or am I just a stubborn, thinks he knows it all pain in the ass… or am I a bit of both.
I’m not halfway through the protocol so in reality I’m still a long way from being healed but my “I’m nearly healed self” always attempts to do things I shouldn’t be attempting which often results in a slip or fall. That happened on Thursday afternoon, after my usual afternoon rest I got up and made my way back into the living room, like an idiot I tried taking bigger steps and not being as careful as I should’ve been. The large stride meant the transfer of weight and grip wasn’t done correctly, one leg then the other collapsed beneath me and the pain was excruciating. When I finally stopped collapsing and laid on my back I realised I’d not done any serious damage, during my very physical past I’ve had nine operations on my knees so understandably they are a major concern, imagine my relief knowing I hadn’t seriously damaged them.
So I suppose I am a mixture of both the earlier descriptions because I actually laughed, well, laughed isn’t exactly what happened but I did smile a lot in the relief I felt realising the only real damage done was to my arrogant male I’m a superhero ego, oh and my butt which I landed on.
The twenty two and a half months have produced improvements in my mobility, my dexterity, my strength, my attitude and my confidence, justifying my initial decision and commitment.
I haven’t taken any drugs which the medical professionals misleadingly call medication, I haven’t healed yet, but what I have done is prove to myself that I’m 100% confident that…
The ABP is the right thing to do.