Understanding and…
Am I healed… no… have I beaten the extreme weakness… no…. can I walk unaided… no… so after eighteen months on the protocol, should I be upset… definitely no…
During those early months especially the first three, there were times that my determination was severely tested, I’m alone for at least 22 hours each day so the only person to encourage and motivate me….. was me… I have a dream, a goal and I’ve made a promise to myself, the promise is that I will live again… I’m 63 yrs old, in reality even if I was a healthy man I couldn’t expect to live beyond my mid eighties..so what kind of life am I dreaming of… at least twenty-five more good, pain free healthy year’s, I don’t expect to skydive again or scuba or rock climb but I will hike again and mountain bike… not serious technical rides but I will ride.
I was talking to my carer yesterday, she asked me how I was able to be so focused and strict with myself, I explained that nothing else matters in my everyday life…. I just want to be healthy again, in my mind if I truly want it, I’ll do whatever it takes to make it happen, if I don’t, it’s simple…. I didn’t want it enough… after eighteen months I’ve eventually found foods that are not only tasty but genuinely healthy. It might appear boring to others but that’s no big deal to me…
As the months have passed I’m heartened as I’m experiencing positives, things that only eighteen months ago simply weren’t possible, also that knowing in just another six months I’ll be halfway there, now I know, I truly believe that I’ll win the jackpot on Euromillions, it’s definitely happening, I don’t know the exact day, but I know it is… Okay not the lottery per se, but being healthy is better, knowing this is a fantastic feeling and until it happens, the most important thing to have is.. Understanding and Patience