Fine balance…
Over this past week I’ve been rather pleased with myself as I’ve basically been doing more physically than I have previously for many months, in fact probably more than the previous two years. A week ago I was able to get up after a few hours rest after lunch and go back into the living room, have a cup of tea and watch something I’d recorded the previous night. I was also able to stand up without holding onto anything. Each day I improved on my previous days efforts, to the point that I’d been squatting from the sofa or my bed ten times, in fact on two days I did 10 squats on two occasions followed by 20 squats, the last few were very difficult but the feeling of muscular strength in my legs was so good to experience.
Today…. Saturday, I did twenty at 7.30 a.m. then about 20 minutes later did another 20, standing tall as I finished each on was really making me focus on all the anterior muscles surrounding my knees, again a great feeling. Before going into the living room I did another 20, I rested for ten minutes then started my normal day, my morning supplements and drinks etc.
I’d had to go to the bathroom twice before 10.30 which is normal, what wasn’t normal was how much I struggled, in fact before my carer arrived at 11.30 I attempted to go again but this time was as if what little strength I had was sucked out of me, even my grip strength in my hands was pathetically weak.
Eventually I made it back to bed, my carer is here making my lunch and preparing my drinks for tomorrow so all is good.
What have I learned from my efforts…. getting stronger is vitally important to healing but the efforts made are so demanding and a very, very fine balance.