They’re leaving.
As I’ve said on numerous occasions, the incredible inner peace, the gratitude, the joy and the “I want to give the bird to the doubters” feeling makes me have that smug look you see on the faces of people that know something you don’t is plastered on my face constantly. As each day dawns for about a week now I’ve had these feelings because I don’t just think it’s working, I know it’s working. The journey as we know is likely to be a very long one, a two or three year dedicated one and I know there are likely to be days that are trying to sow seeds of doubt. But that isn’t going to happen with me. I’ve maintained a positive attitude for as long as most kids are in school, I’ve had some horrendous days, days that I’ve been puking and had diarrhoea at the same time. Days I’ve fallen and couldn’t get up for seven hours and been forced to sit on the floor, naked at 3 in the morning and that was in November a couple of years ago.
I’m not healed and not in my wildest dreams could I have expected that to happen within three months of starting this program, but the subtle changes that are happening, some staying with me for days, fading then returning are making me feel so good. I know it’s changing my life, it’s making it not just bearable but enjoyable. For almost two decades I be had really offensive, obnoxious squatters living in my house, but guess what…… they’re leaving.