Night and day..
Over the past years as the disease has slowly but surely taken a firmer grip on me physically and even though I’ve tried my hardest it’s affected me mentally and emotionally.
I’ve often talked about how physically drained I’ve felt, I think it must be nigh on impossible for anyone to truly understand what that means and I’m not complaining about anyone and everyone not understanding. The fact is, it’s impossible for someone else to appreciate what it means unless you have experienced it yourself.
On occasions there have been days, literally days when I had less physical strength than a newborn baby. I described my struggle on Friday night and after a fall it literally took almost 3 hours to get from the bathroom to my bed which can’t be more that 15ft apart. It was impossible to pull my leg forward while flat on my belly. I can honestly say I was petrified, but as I was saying to a carer today (Tuesday), what was inside me was a desire and determination to never give in, I look back and I truly amazed myself, I really did.
So the heading of this post is “Night and day”, well as you know I’ve been focussing on nutrition to help restore my health. I’ve talked about the “mighty 90” a combination of minerals, vitamins, amino acids and essential fatty acids that everybody needs to function efficiently. Over the past few days I’ve added to this with a “Supergreen drink and Rooibos tea. I’m not actually eating conventional food simply because the majority is totally bereft of genuine goodness contrary to what the label says.
Anyway it’s been a little difficult, I’ve mentioned “die off” which has resulted in more weakness and very loose bowel movement, not nice or easy to cope with, being me.
From mid afternoon Tuesday I noticed a difference, I felt better coordination and not as weak. As the day wore on I can honestly say the difference between how I’m feeling now and anytime in the past 6 months is like night and day.
I’m not having wild delusions thinking I’ve beaten it, well not just yet, but this is so nice, I’m so happy.
Wednesday morning.
Just adding to yesterday’s post, I’m not sure exactly what to say about how I’m feeling in comparison to yesterday, in some ways I went to sleep thinking how I was feeling was too good to be true and in the morning things would be back to the usual sickly me. Well I was wrong and right, wrong that it would be back to sickly me and right about my determination to stick with what me and in truth only me truly believed.
At this time I don’t genuinely believe I’ve totally beaten this disease, but the improvement I’m feeling now at 7.40am is better than at anytime in the past 5 years.
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