Didn’t want it….
Like so many others with this hideous disease, as in multiple sclerosis, I’ve embarked on a journey that in reality will probably be my life’s challenge. My belief….My absolute belief is that I will achieve my goal, which is totally healing from this within four years, it might be less or more but it will happen. However, when that happens I won’t revert back to my previous eating habits because all that would do is reverse all the previous efforts, and trust me when I say, the ABP is not easy…
Getting a so called incurable disease, and MS is perceived to be one of them, didn’t happen overnight, yes I did wake up one cold February morning in 2004 and experience horrendous symptoms, but that was my body eventually succumbing to the culmination of many years of bad things that had gone into my home, as in the body my conscious and subconscious mind lives, otherwise known as me… Stefan.
I honestly believe that a person, anyone…. Can achieve anything they want, if…. if they truly want it, there can be no “if’s or it was too hard, or I didn’t like to eat that way”.. if you really want to achieve something, you’ll do whatever it takes…
Start this protocol and commit, yes it’s hard initially and there’s good and the occasional bad along the way but you only have to look at those that have gone before and healed to see that all the pain and sacrifice will be worth it, if I, you don’t succeed there’s no excuse, it’s just that you didn’t want it… enough…
Because I will never….
At the beginning of the month, my first year anniversary of the ABP, the day I consider to be my New Years day, actually my New Life Day, I moved to a new house, that description is wrong, yes it was a new place to live but “New house” !!! Not really because it’s a 350 yr old converted barn, I’ve said that before, I know…. now after three weeks here, there have been some changes to me and I’m really, really confused about because I have up to the beginning of September been making what I’m happy to say have been really positive improvements. But since moving in I physically feel I’ve taken a step backwards. My initial thoughts were that stress was the culprit, I also ate a couple of not allowed foods, not purposely, I simply made an error in judgment, that’s been corrected, wrist firmly slapped…. and back on plan. Getting to the bathroom, a 20 times per day occurrence was….. is very difficult and seriously tiring, New furniture that looks great but soft non supportive arms makes it so awkward for me. Fortunately DFS are very kindly allowing me to change the sofas to two more appropriate ones, as they are being made to order I won’t get them for another two weeks, but I’m so grateful it’s happening.
So those things were the reason I thought that I’ve been so fatigued about 4 hours after I’ve been up and about, I’ve also been in seriously deep thought as to other possible reasons, I’ve been in my bed resting for 20 hours each day, which I’m sure you can imagine is a tad boring to say the least.
I’ve come to the conclusion that the stress of moving, the slight indulgence, the difficulty in getting around, definitely played a part in this but personally I don’t think that that is the definitive reason…. yes they affected me but I feel it’s more likely another phase of Die Off…. and as such it will pass.
It’s been challenging, exhausting, frustrating and damn well painful, but as we all know, this is a very specific journey we travel, it’s likely to be a four year adventure and probably not just that but more likely for life, so after a year of slow but steady improvements, then three weeks plus of horrible times, it has been a worrying period for me, but know this my friends…..I will achieve the beloved goal of healing…. why???? Because I’m a stubborn determined scouse git and I will never, ever give up…
Over confident.
As my first year was completed at the beginning of the month I personally felt really good about how things were going, there’s no doubt about the many small improvements that have slowly but definitely become a very positive compilation and confidence booster.
When looked at by others it probably doesn’t appear that different, but from my point of view they are small but significant changes, the reduction in pain, the ability to feel and move my toes on my left foot and so many other things have made me feel so optimistic. I like to think of the focus and determination I’ve shown over the year is exactly what’s necessary to be successful in this clearly laid out but very strict protocol.
In order to succeed in this, in my opinion is to develop habits…. good habits are very hard to develop but so easy and beneficial to live with, whereas bad habits are easy to develop and very hard and detrimental to live with…
I moved house 2 weeks ago with the massive help of my fantastic sister Suzie, into a 350 yr old converted barn that was once, not that long ago, being used as a church…
Obviously the move, the changes, the differences have been stressful for all concerned, however it shouldn’t have been used as a reason to be stupidly over confident, which I realise I have been and eaten foods I shouldn’t have… Stupid boy!!!!
Carbzone… gluten free bread, I’ve not had breads or pitta’s for about 10 months, also a gluten free breakfast cereal sweetened with stevia… that should have been okay but it also had little pieces of chocolate in, again sweetened with Stevia.
I’ve been struggling big time getting to the bathroom which is narrow but in reality shouldn’t have created such a big problem, so much so that although I’m up by 8am I’m back in my bed by 12.30.. so about 19 plus hours in my bed, not sleeping, it’s just so much easier knowing I’m in the loo 20 times each day.
Changes:… incorporating some new electrolyte tabs that hopefully can help me reduce my water intake, I’ve just started them so we’ll see if dropping to 3.5 litres from 5 litres doesn’t have a detrimental effect. Also, the bread and that delicious cereal are no longer going to pass my lips.
It’s frightening to think that the sugar content, as small as it was, bearing in mind that all carbs are converted into blood sugars could have such a terrible effect, so a swift wrist slap…. ouch…I should have known better, and let’s see if I can continue my first year progress and not be stupidly over confident
What if…
Since I started on the Ann Boroch Protocol a year ago it filled me with something more than hope, it changed the very inner me…. does that make sense!!… it sort of strengthened my resolution to keep trying and fight through the pain and discomfort no matter how difficult it got….
Over my first year there’s been times, not days or hours but minutes and then only seconds when I had doubts…. seconds that would fade away as I took deep breaths and reminded myself that it’s working, that overall I’m feeling stronger, more balance and stability and it had gotten easier to become accustomed to feeling better so that when a slight very temporary negative happened I let that take a dominant role…it was easy to forget that in reality I’d been diagnosed with what the world of traditional medicine, the neurologists, the people that are perceived to be experts in their profession all say… categorically state the disease I have is incurable. That’s their view, their opinion , that’s not what I know… not what I think or my misguided opinion… it’s what I know!!!!.
So take a second and think about what I’m saying and the difference between the multi billion dollar world of medicine, the doctors and neurologists, them and then me, they have an opinion, but I know and….. what if I’m right…
Everyone wants……
The world doesn’t owe you anything, it isn’t your right to be healthy, rich, happy in a loving relationship…… nothing is your right… it doesn’t matter if your relative or friend or someone you know is really happy and successful…. you have no idea what they’ve done to get there…. it’s weird how the people that work hard, that keep trying just seem to get luckier and luckier everyday..
Work…. life… health…. the same applies… fall down….get up….fall down….get up… fall down.. get up !!!! For more than thirteen years I thought I knew I would beat multiple sclerosis, I just didn’t know how, I tried to remain optimistic, it was getting harder and harder everyday as I was getting weaker and sicker everyday. That was how it was until I heard about Ann Boroch and read her book, fortunately for me I was contacted by Janet Orchard and was able to start the correct way on the ABP.. now I’m not telling you there is only one way of beating this disease, but I am telling you that the Ann Boroch Protocol, the ABP is a tried and tested and proven way that is currently and has previously been followed by thousands….
So no complaints, no “Woe is me”, there no, “but it’s too hard”…. nothing great is easy, fantastic gymnasts and sportsmen didn’t just become great.. successful businesses didn’t become successful overnight.. in every case, the people had to try, try and try again….
Watch motivational YouTube videos, read books, do whatever is necessary…. Whatever…. and believe… don’t have the slightest doubt, regardless of whatever setback befall you..
Everyone wants to be healthy, successful or whatever, not everyone wants it enough, if you do, you’ll get there..
Not what you aren’t going to do.
To a certain extent most people, including me have been going about this the wrong way….
People often say..”I’m not going to eat dairy anymore, or I’m not going to eat sugar anymore or whatever they decide is bad for them…. sadly this is the wrong way to go about achieving a goal…
My goal for instance is the be healthy again, my goal is to no longer have Multiple sclerosis…
There are four S’s involved..
Sacrifice…Struggle..Suffering…Success…..
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Sacrifice… going without certain foods.
Struggle…more of a mental thing, constantly justifying to yourself.
Suffering…the pain and frustration..
The first three are painful and often make you doubt yourself, your thoughts and what you’re doing, but the fourth… oh the fourth… Success.. wow… that is worth all of the first three put together.
The way to go about this, is to firstly make a commitment to yourself, not to anyone else, just to you… the commitment is to never use excuses, there’s no ” I could have if only..” or “if it wasn’t for them or it, I’d have done this…
Then believe…. not hope or wish… that doesn’t come into play, it’s just 100% belief. Your goal.. my goal is not going to be that I’m stopping this or that…my goal is I Will be Healthy, I Will be free of disease and in order to do that,
l Will do Whatever is necessary..
Easy…
So what’s easy?…eating your favourite meal or snack or chocolate bar, or drinking that really tasty can of coke or Pepsi or mountain dew or whatever appeals to your tastebuds… “so what” people say ! “If it’s not good because those weird people say so, big deal !!! we’ve all got to die sometime, so might as well enjoy life until it happens”….. So what else is easy?…. getting sick is so easy, you don’t even have to plan or do anything special, it just happens… the weird thing is, that when it does, the person will more often be shocked and surprised and feel hurt because this disease, this incurable disease, according to doctors has struck them totally out of the blue… People say, “I haven’t done anything different lately, and yet I woke up this morning and felt bad, it just happened”.
Well you are right and wrong… huh!!. Right it happened, but wrong in that it didn’t just happen…. it was actually festering and growing day by day for years while you were feeding it with junk foods and masses of sugar until it became strong enough to create symptoms that were noticeable…
Very few people are interested in preventing it from happening and are more than willing to “take a pill” as prescribed by the drug pusher, oops sorry, the doctor…
It’s also easy to do that, to just take a pill, nine times out of ten you’ll feel better almost instantly… ever wondered why that happens? More often than not, a disease is in the body, not just one area, but it is affecting one area, one organ more dramatically than other areas, you have specific receptors associated with each function that’s taking place automatically to keep you alive. Pharmaceutical companies make drugs to address symptoms, they numb the receptors so the body doesn’t know you have a problem, you initially feel better, but that’s only a temporary thing, which results in lifelong medication that often has to be increased on a regular basis. Pharmaceutical companies don’t make cures….. it’s not in their best financial interest, they just create more customers….
So getting sick, taking pills is easy, but truly….. truly getting healthy takes mental strength, determination, focus and an unbreakable commitment because it takes time…